i think i am because when i ran out today and my doc wont renew the script i became very agitated and "ill"  

I was having 2mg i/v in hospital but they only sent me out with 2mg tabs which lose 50-70% of the effectiveness in the acid stomach, funny how they didn't tell me that... so I was taking one and nothing was happening to improve the pain.

So I  took 2, crushed and snorted (suggested by a good friend !) and that worked for the pain, but no euphoria, which was ok coz I was in pain and not in it for the fun.   You crush them so they go quickly into your blood stream and dont have to wait an hour for them to dissolve inthe stomach - nothing 'bad' or illegal about it, just more time effective.

I found they only worked for a couple of hours tho then I became very relaxed (coz the pain had disappeared) but talkative.  Sometimes even going into another living world (while lying down on the bed) - not hallucinating, but just me in a different space in time, not like star trek, but just... next week or with different stuff around me.  I began to like this alot.  I was kinda like astral travelling, not trippy, but just .... wonderful.  And the BEST thing aboiut these pain meds is that they dont make me vomit or itch!  I have found my new heaven.

And at $16 for 30 of them, OMG how great is this??  Unfortunately they are more potent and illegal (without an rx) than morphine, so no chance of getting more if i wanted to explore the cool side of it.